Entry #337

i'm back

2015-07-07 19:22:42 by SileNt-Sam

and yes, i'm still alive.. sorry for getting you all worried, i just disappeared without warning and never talked to anyone, i know.. it's my fault, for everyone who cares.. i'm sorry, it wasn't easy for me as well :c 

but if ya gimme a minute here i'll explain... well i'm not sure where to start, you guys know i've had a bad days lately, and i thank you all for holding my back those days, i wouldn't make it without you :) but when i thought it's getting better.. my father passed away :( yeah... that's when all the bullshit began, just put yourself in my position, you're in a strange country, no friends and no one to trust, and above all that your father dies... i won't lie i was mentally and physically destroyed by that, why physically? because someone had to pay for our school bills, over 4700USD for me and my couple lil sisters, keep away the bus bills and daily things, so i had to sell my laptop, PS3, phone and pretty much everything i got and started working 7\24 after school to keep it up with all that :\ 

that's what happend in short, all tho now i'm all good, i'm in the UK London now, living in gradma's house -.- at least it's better this way, much bigger house and i don't have to do everything myself and work my ass all day .-. 

okay.. enough with the sad part, i'm doing great now :) i think i got depressed to bad that i stopped feeling bad about it XD at least that's the only good thing i came out with >.> i still miss my dad tho.. specially that Fathers Day been few days ago.. but eh we gotta move on and hope he's in a better place now <3 :) 

so.... man i've been off the internet for ages o.o i feel like a caveman XD 

how's everyone holding up out there? hope you're all doing great :) i really missed you all <3 each and everyone of you ^.^ and again, i'm so sorry for getting you all woried..

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and still got over 40 PMs to read and let away DA notes, i feel bad for leaving you guys like that, but i also feel great knowing there's people out there holding my back when i need it <3 i love you all :') 

i'm back now and hopefully i'll start drawing again soon ^^ please let me know how you've been while i'm off :)


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TheDyingSunTheDyingSun

2015-07-07 19:48:30

Welcome back, everyone will be definitely glad you're back. Though I still will be extra gentle with you the first days you get back into the swing of things, since things do have to return to normal.
The family welcomes you back bro ^^

SileNt-Sam responds:

i'm feeling like home already lol
thx a lot sis ^^ glad to be back c:


ManaSakuraManaSakura

2015-07-07 23:07:39

I had a friend on Fur Affinity who's father passed away too. I was crying at that, especially when yours passed away too. I'm doing fine though, I hid a cut from my friend because of my depression months back. :o But hey, welcome back! ^^ We missed you!

SileNt-Sam responds:

yeah i feel you, it hurts a lot when it happens to a friend, but never thought it'll happen to me this soon, but eh i'm good with moving on i guess :P glad to be back! ^^


1999Elias1999Elias

2015-07-08 03:15:12

Welcome back again bro, you know I feel great to see you're still... well... ok I think xD
I'm sorry about your father, I know he was important to you, but it's good to see you're better :)
I think I sent to you a PM a looooong time ago too, I got worried about you (I don't see tailsbuddy anymore too) but now you're back, yay! :P
I'm sorry about questioning but what about your mother?

SileNt-Sam responds:

thx bro, yeah i've seen it, totally appreciate it :)
and yeah my father.. well that was unexpected to be honest, but yeah hope he's ina better place now ^^
my mom? she's here with me ^^ me her and both of my sisters moved on to London, grandma's house is pretty big and got few empty rooms since only her is living there, not sure if we'll stay here for too long but i guess everyone's happy about it, so why not :P


RedAndrewRedAndrew

2015-07-08 06:32:10

Sam! You're back! Oh man I mis you. And I'm sorry for your loss and troubles, hope you're okay now.

SileNt-Sam responds:

hey bro! thx man and no worries i'm all good ;D


DetrailedFiresDetrailedFires

2015-07-08 21:45:11

Damn man its been a while since I've seen you post stuff on here. I'm sorry about your dad though, glad you were able to push through it. On the other hand, things here changed a bit. Can't wait to see you post cool art and kinda get back into the swing of things

SileNt-Sam responds:

thanks man :) and yeah i'll be back making stuff in no time ^^


CaesarArchCaesarArch

2015-07-08 23:11:19

*Put pringles aside* Sorry. I was peckish when reading the story :|

Now, to business. You're back, Mhmm Mhmm, and you're across the sea. Mhmm Mhmm. Uk's a great place if you push the war crazy ... Wait that's 'Murica. What to say about England? Its a great place to live, with the free Healthcare. Normal goods for cheap(For Irish people at least). If you put aside the reckless comments and fights about immigrants Yadda' Yadda' you've got a great place to live.

The UK has its limits with all the riots that can occasionally come out of the blue (Mostly because of bills or fines). But aside from that as well. If you know where you live and how safe it is. You get on fine. Now its different over in Ireland since its just...well barren land in the countryside. Dublin's a hectic place if you step over the wrong side and into a place I like to call "Tinker Town" Its full of "Tinkers" or "Tramps". Mess with these fuckers, you better make sure you didn't skip leg day or you're a dead man.

Now enough about UK and Ireland.

Losing your dad is tough. I've seen my Best friend lose his 2 parents in a space of 2 years. Now I didn't get to see him much but at their funerals, I made sure he knew I was there for him. He's getting along better now living with his Aunt and Brothers. But for you, you'll get along fine if you live with your Grandma. You get hungry, she's there to feed ya', make sure you don't say no to her food or she'll force it down you. You eat or you get force fed. But it's great that you're back, and hope to speak to you soon.
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Am I really the only one that has just written a godamn 1 1/2 page homework story for you? M8 wtf? o_o

SileNt-Sam responds:

lol yeah ikr, many people sent me stories in PM so they didn't comment here :P it's no big deal tho i just made it to let everyone know i'm back ^^
and yeah man, losing your parents isn't easy at all, specially in a place where you have no one else of your family, all tho it's good now we made it back to the london, and yeah never mess with grandma's food lol


Fivestar811Fivestar811

2015-07-09 09:01:38

SAM!!!! YOUR BACK!!!! WE MISSED YOU!!! :D YEAH!!!!

Sorry..... just glad your back :D
I am very sorry for your loss, I know it's tough to lose someone who loves you. It's just....... How life goes. Very sad I know :( we just have to move on. But I know your father wants you to live a happy life.
All that trouble you went through........ damn........... so much pain............. :'(

But I'm glad your okay now :) It's great to have you back!
Live happily <3

Now here's a comment: I'll never leave this place, I'm halfway to 60 now :I
Must achieve God

SileNt-Sam responds:

heeey man! yeah bro it's good to be back! ;D
and yeah, it's how life goes :\ we just gotta move on i guess..
at least i'm pretty happy to be back here ^^
lol ikr we're growing fast o.O or maybe it's just days going fast ~.~


FrozenJetpaxFrozenJetpax

2015-07-09 11:04:38

I'm actually pretty glad, welcome back.

SileNt-Sam responds:

thanks man! :)


PsychedelicSamuraiPsychedelicSamurai

2015-07-09 18:33:58

That's nuts. I'm really sorry for your loss. Life screws all of us over, but it's great that you're moving on. All the bullshit that life throws at us hurts, but it does make us stronger once we get back on our feet. Good luck in your future drawings, I hope to see a lot improvement!

SileNt-Sam responds:

thanks man :)
and yeah shit happens.. but gotta move on, i'll be back on drawing very soon! ^^


tailsbuddytailsbuddy

2015-07-10 06:55:28

SAMMY! YOU'RE BAAACK !! :D
Honestly, I thought you took a spaceship and flew to a galaxy far far away that has no internet. :c

Sorry about your loss, man, though I'm glad that you're feeling better now. I've started to join a group called "7 cups of tea", which is basically a support group that helps people on the internet (Really not trying to advertise here, sorry :c ,but the people there are actually pretty nice as well, and I'm hoping It'll help you with your loss)

Anyways, I've been idle on NG these days and have been assumed 'ded' by a couple of people, mostly because I'm getting addicted to math (not lying here) ever since I've got nominated for a school competition.(Not sure if good or bad) Another reason is that I'm feeling awfully lazy ,which explains the team pic that I've planned in 2013, started in 2014 and procrastinated till now. (Which reminds me,I've been working on pencil sketches of it since '13 and have never realized that I can actually draw it on paper now that I think of it. O.o)

Nevertheless, I'm happy to see you moving on. A wise man once said:" When life gives you lemons, throw it back at them and burn their house down." (Note that I made the "wise man" thing up :P) And hey if you're ever feeling down, think about the people on NG who care about you!Just look at the crapload of comments!

(Also, good luck with reaching 400 fans! Only 2 more to go ;D )

SileNt-Sam responds:

heeeey taily!!
wow i was just talking about you! thought you left too and honestly started to worry o:
yeah those support groups are awesome, but i'm already over it some i'm good :3
lol yeah i feel you, i got a lot of sketches over here never finished them, oh the laziness XD
my dad once told me "if life gives you lemons, make orange juice and let them wounder how the f*ck you made it" XD i never realized what he meant until now tho
and yeah almost 400 fans :D you guys are the best ^^
oh and you could gimme those sketches and i'll finish them for ya :3 been pretty much out of ideas lately and dunno what to draw ~.~


NekoMikaNekoMika

2015-07-11 13:38:56

Glad to see you back~

SileNt-Sam responds:

awww thank you sweetie :) missed talking to you ^-^


NekoMikaNekoMika

2015-07-11 14:41:42

Talk to me on kik so we can catch up :D

SileNt-Sam responds:

as soon as i get my kik back! :D


chris-the-stick2chris-the-stick2

2015-07-12 19:29:32

hey, i was worried about your long absence from NG...

whats up?
are you OK?

i hope that you have received my PM that i've sent you a while ago....
its good to have you back, welcome back!

you are doing good artwork, and you are a nice person.
whats new with you?

SileNt-Sam responds:

thanks man ^^ and yeah i'm back on drawing :3
eh not much, still getting used on the weather here, everything is going well now ^^


chris-the-stick2chris-the-stick2

2015-07-12 19:33:04

also im sorry for your loss.
R.I.P.

i hope that you're feeling better now, PM me anytime if you want some friendly person to talk with, i can cheer you up, sir!

SileNt-Sam responds:

it's okay man, it happens
oh i will :3 i really appreciate it! <3 :D


limeslimedlimeslimed

2015-07-12 20:30:26

no just go away

SileNt-Sam responds:

*Sam goes away and hangs himself*


TheDubStepTronicTheDubStepTronic

2015-07-13 12:01:11

Hello, welcome back. So uhh, how have you been?

SileNt-Sam responds:

thanks, eh not much these days, welcome back you too :3


SaviorLojiSaviorLoji

2015-07-13 13:30:55

Wow, you really had rough time!
im glad you are fine, people were worried sick for you here
Im sorry for your loss, and hang on: im sure things will get better :)


CrowleyCrowCrowleyCrow

2015-07-14 19:56:01

Good to have you back Sam.

SileNt-Sam responds:

thanks man :)


Josef-EliassonJosef-Eliasson

2015-07-17 13:46:05

JJ JJ

SileNt-Sam responds:

"My jordans on my feet, MY jordans on my feet"
"My jordans on my feet, MY jordans on my feet"


TheDubStepTronicTheDubStepTronic

2015-07-18 19:13:37

I dunno what DeadComputer is talking about, he scares me with his feet fetish and shiz.

SileNt-Sam responds:

lol where?


TheDubStepTronicTheDubStepTronic

2015-07-20 13:08:33

On steam he told me he had feet fetish, and started saying a bunch of random shet XD

SileNt-Sam responds:

lmao never judge bro XD


TheDubStepTronicTheDubStepTronic

2015-07-20 13:45:41

What are you talking about, hehehe... You know what he did? Tried to have an argument with me. Little spastic child, and he is calling me a kid. When he is still a kid himself. He doesn't even have the balls to talk to my older friend because he is a pussy.

SileNt-Sam responds:

lol yeah it happens, just leave the poor thing alone he doesn't worth it ^^


TheDubStepTronicTheDubStepTronic

2015-07-20 14:20:43

Yeah, he isn't worth it now.... But I will attempt to grab his IP...Maybe, just maybe.

SileNt-Sam responds:

you evil xD


TheDubStepTronicTheDubStepTronic

2015-07-20 15:30:26

Hahaha, very evil. XD

SileNt-Sam responds:

yea cx


nick251nick251

2015-07-24 20:31:17

did you always have 400 fans? if you didn't then congrats m8.

SileNt-Sam responds:

thanks man


gloomiiboygloomiiboy

2015-07-29 22:15:51

Jesus, You've been through a lot. I'm sorry about your father <3 *hugs* I've been away from newgrounds for awhile because of personal issues as you know so I understand. Keep going! I'm rooting for you ^w^!!

SileNt-Sam responds:

yeah *hugs* c:
thx! ^^


SillyBeansSillyBeans

2015-08-06 14:07:54

wow, well glad to see you back again

SileNt-Sam responds:

thx ^^


MyNameIsMiaMyNameIsMia

2015-08-09 16:21:37

Ayyyy I'm on your news post lmao

SileNt-Sam responds:

yay welcome to da club


AbsurdTylerAbsurdTyler

2015-10-16 22:56:45

I can see that your still rocking! :D I check your page a lot. Love some of your movies! Keep up the great work! And I'm going around to all of my fans and informing them about the new comedy art I posted. :) If you want to check that out.

SileNt-Sam responds:

thx man ^^
oh sounds awesome i'll check it out! :D


Fivestar811Fivestar811

2015-10-18 23:06:08

Hey buddy, how's it going?

SileNt-Sam responds:

hey man ^^ oh all good, just school and chill xD


vampiretoddvampiretodd

2015-10-25 21:07:05

Hey man, haven't heard back from you yet. Are you busy with something?


mandogmandog

2015-11-04 17:53:07

leaave


TheDubStepTronicTheDubStepTronic

2015-12-09 17:32:28

I see dead computer spread some lies and shit to you. And everyone knows in my family. and my irl friends know that I never lie. He is a psychopath, he proved him self. I'll send some pics if needed to.


WavepadWavepad

2015-12-24 08:34:39

That makes the 2 of us.

SileNt-Sam responds:

welcome back man


chris-the-stick2chris-the-stick2

2016-03-29 19:21:35

are you online, dude?

if so, good.
if not, get back on NG!

we missed you, man. you make good artwork, and you are a good person.

so yeah, if you see this, reply back, and PM me.
(i shall PM you soon)


AbsurdTylerAbsurdTyler

2016-04-21 03:38:16

I see your still doing great! :D I want you to know that I still check out your page every once and a while. :) I also wanted to tell all of my fans that I have two new comedy arts out and more coming soon. If you want to check those out


Fivestar811Fivestar811

2016-09-23 20:06:25

:(.....


chris-the-stick2chris-the-stick2

2016-10-28 20:44:43

hey, whats up?

PM me anytime!


chris-the-stick2chris-the-stick2

2017-02-22 18:51:38

hello, i hope that everything's OK with you...

and once again, if you ever want to talk with a friend, PM me anytime! (or post on my newspage, or both)