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Oh... holy mother of God...
Whatever you do don't kill yourse-
"Meeeh, fuck you I don't care."
Of course. I had a friend who wanted to suicide and I tried to stop him. He always said no.
Rest in Piece old man...
So, you have a depression? I can't help you, because you will ignore every single part of my support.
Hope you will get over your depression.
nah i won't suicide i'm not that stupid .. but i feel so lost .. i can't deny i wanna die but not suicide .. i'm not that weak
I have a gay friend and I know he's going to heaven, don't sweat it, just love conditionally!
Love, even if you might get hurt by it, love, but don't hold it too tightly, let it go where it will.
God needs people that love with their heart, don't disappoint Him by killing or hurting yourself or your feelings!
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well that's what i tried to believe but that's not what most priests says .. anyways i'm not gonna hurt myself or do anything like that but i think i need some time alone to put my mind up and think about all that :\ hope what you're saying is right and that's what i always knew but lately i HAD to change that .. ugh anyways that one of my 99 problems now , i'll deal with the others and be back to this later .. thx man
Hear me, you're not obligated to nothing in this earth, you're not obligated to stop seeing or talking with your friends, no matter if they're homosexuals or not, this isn't a sin, be yourself isn't a sin, be depressed isn't a sin (if it was I would be the biggest sinner in this planet).
The best way to know the true (if this is what you need) is read the Bible, there you will know everything you need for sure, I admit I'm not someone that read all the days the Bible (all the time I try to read it I get sleepy) and no one too to point to someone, be about sins, problems, whatever it is about.
If you don't know, I always thought: "Why I live? Who would miss me if I disappear someday? What am I supposed to do in my whole life?" and much more questions that nobody in this earth can tell me, wanted several times to die or to kill myself, but never got courage to do it, else I would be taking something I don't own.
Don't feel so bad about sins, nobody is perfect man, I'm a big sinner and I admit I deserve the death because this, but Someone loved so much the world that gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life, and I'm sure you know you're important, not just to Him, but to all of us ;)
Peace man, and have a good day :)
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you got a good point .. i try thinking about that to make me feel better sometimes :)
too lazy to write something ? nah
No, no, no, brother! Artists get to draw whatever they like, BROTHER, I've been through this! Look beyond the wrong and see the right, People lie to us yes, but we always seek the truth and one day with turn their own lies against them, the days may get longer and longer, but we still stand together. I've been sensing somethings are going to happen, but I will pray our kind will be safe, NO NO NO. In my moral code I have it saying don't end your own life! Even with darkness there is light. no matter how small it comes, things have been ripping me apart, but no matter what happens we have to keep in control, I couldn't sleep for a few nights because all the pain I felt kept getting to me, Miroisk hates me, and I'd kill Miroisk if she would be standing if front of me in her lying, death defying form, I'd cause her the pain he made fester inside me, We have to do what we have to do, Good people don't go to heaven, Only FORGIVEN PEOPLE. HUMANS ARE IMPERFECT, I don't even stick to my own schedules, Sometimes a voice in my head wants me to quit, but I shake it off and continue, even though it comes back stronger, we become stronger, While typing this the insane part of me is basically saying that, "Quit, quit! quit!!! QUIT!!!!!!" BROTHER, PLEASE! I COULD CRY! Honestly, between you and Melindi, I hate to admit it, but I have a stronger connection with you, it's just a sense I had that I would have to be by your side, Brother, Your time is not now to go! There is so much more, I was asked for a prompt in class, what would I do in the last hour of MY LIFE. I HAVE SO MUCH TO TELL, YET IT IS NOT TIME, Brother, we have to stick together, One brick alone is a piece, but pieces together create a building, and many buildings make a city, we may seem small, but to your friends, your so very important to us! Taka beat me down when I was trying to protect my friends from harm, and to my friends, I was special, I was creative, strong, and kind, Becauase of our choices we are who we are, We wanted to be special, and we got what we wanted, MIROISK CAN'T GET ME, SHE'S JUST ME, WE CAN"T TURN BACK ON THE PAST, EXCEPT PREPARE FOR THE FUTURE, Please oh please, stay brother, I know this is serious because I KNOW YOU, but I KNOW YOU CAN MAKE IT ANOTHER DAY, if I found you at my doorstep and my parents wouldn't let you in, I'd still help in my own ways. Please brother, we are strong...
oh sis sorry for making you worried .. don't worry i'd never hurt myself or anything like that .. i'm just feeling pretty empty after what that priest said to me .. ugh i knew i shouldn't ask him anyways .. but indeed .. believe it or not that's what keeps me going forward .. every time i get this feelings i remember what you said :)
it's been a week now since i wrote that but i swear it felt like yesterday .. it's like i've been sleeping the whole week and just woke up .. anyways i'm feeling a bit better now .. i had to spend some time alone and think about all that .. and i think the best way to reach the truth is what Elias said .. the holy book , it's been a wile since i read it .. that's the only way and that's what i'm gonna do hopefully .. but till that time don't worry about me i'll be fine :)
also i got finals soon i won't be online much longer the next couple weeks .. ugh that's the last thing i need .. but anyways hope you'll do great as well and we'll talk again soon :)
To me it sounds like the people telling you that something is a sin are the bad ones. I can't say that i'm an expert or that I have all the answers but if people are telling you not to hang with other people for no valid reason then they are wrong. Drawing especially because in the end art is different to everyone. one thing I think we can all agree on is that we all use it in some way to express ourselves.
Sorry for the long winded speech but I just don't want anyone else to think I'm not there for them.
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indeed , that's what i think .. but they come up with quotes from the holy book that supports what they're saying so i can't talk back .. anyways .. thanks man , i'll see what i can do about it
I feel ya! </3
Please do not get depressed, artist can draw whatever they want, but sometimes, depression gets in their way (like my sister) and then they say "I'm too depressed to draw", like what happened to me when I recieved a poor grade in Music, it made me depressed. I'm no expert at telling which is good and which is bad, but a sin is bad. You cant stop. Please, hear these words of mine. Dont expect someone to say "QUIT IT, QUIT IT WITH THE ART!", just ignore them, and move on.
indeed .. and that's what i'm gonna do hopefully :)
Your're just a Teenager. If you read about teens, you will know that what your're feeling is normal. I felt (long time ago) that I wanted to be murdered. That time has passed and I have been trying to fix my life, and it turned for the best. Also, I you want to have a good time (to make you feel better :D) just have Hangover. Smoke it off and drink some beer. Do it with friends. That's what I do atleast every friday :D.
sounds like fun ^^
but that's a part of the problem .. i traveled to study in another country and i miss my friends :(
i made many friends here but they're not as cool as the old ones .. ugh lucky you hehe
holy shit man, I hope you'll feel better! Just remember all of the awesome things you have and ARE, like you said, how tough and smart you are. just stay strong, it's just a time in your life and one day you'll look back at it and laugh! :D
thx man i hope so c:
Hopefully when you wake up you'll feel better.. sleep can really turn things around.
Your friends aren't sinners, your drawings aren't sins.. alot of people love your work and I'm pretty sure that your fans sent you messages saying so. And being the real you is definitely not a sin. You've helped so many people in your life! You're a strong guy Sam.. I know so (: Don't let this swallow you up. Now I know I'm terrible at cheering people up.. but I can't just act like I didn't see this.
Hopefully you'll gather your strength and overcome this gray (:
thx sweetie i will c:
ugh it was one hell of a week honestly but i'm feeling better now .. still got some stuff to deal with tho , anyways .. hope i didn't make you worried .. can't wait to see you again ^^
I don't understand why drawing is a sin. You should go back to the priest and ask about that in more detail. Nothing is a sin except for envy, gluttony, greed, pride, sloth, lust, wrath. How the Hell does drawing relate to those?? Do not just get disappointed when you hear that something is bad, you must understand why it is bad and how to do it correctly - that's number one rule of learning.
Isolating yourself from gay friends is against Bible in case if they want to talk to you. You may isolate yourself from the sexual topic, so as to avoid the lust sin. However, you do not need to isolate yourself from whole people just to not talk with them about sexual topics. That's just ridiculous and an overkill solution for the problem. Explain that to the priest. Do not forget to mention that you must be kind to ALL people on earth, and that is one of the virtues which you will otherwise miss out on.
If drawing is your purpose in life, you need to explain to the priest that by claiming it to be sin, he's depriving you of your purpose and turning to depression and eventually suicide. The priest is obligated to give you a new, correct, sin-less purpose, and if he refuses, then he's slacking off with his job and you should complain about him to the other priests. He might change his mind about the entire "sin" problem swiftly when he hears threatening.
indeed man .. thanks for caring .. i'll see what i can do
do what the heart tells you not some dude who thinks he/she's the voice of god and you need to stay cuz you have friends ond here that care and worrie about you (sorry for my bad spelling)
thanks my friend :)
Dude you can see we all care for YOU! Look at our comments. Drawing isn't sin at all, and you've been so nice to us for years, I can't think of anyone nicer than you. And we totally respect that man. Just.... Be.... YOU!!! That's all. Lets just keep doing what we are doing. Being nice to others, contributing, and being awesome. I may be 20 years old now but I still have teen left in me!!!!
thanks man .. that's what i needed to hear :)
Eh,just fuck that feeling off man,ain't it time for some change? Like you said, dude, you're lost, and that's what we're here for you.I mean, if you're alone, why would you even be here? We're here for you, and that's what you SHOULD know.We might be thousands of miles apart from each other, but we're still a team, and as a team, we care for each other.
About the "sinner" thing, from my point of view, religion isn't always true. No, I'm not an atheist, but I live in a multi-cultural country, and that made me realize that there isn't always an answer for things,and sometimes there are some rules you have to break.Plus,in my opinion, the "lust" sin isn't really a sin. I mean, everyone is naked till the invention of clothes,so in one way or another, the things we call "porn" is pretty much a part of our usual lives.I'd rather say that your drawins are....primitive in a way,and that's where we all start from.(Not trying to offend anyone here.)And so, if you want to blame your headache and feelings of guilt, blame clothes,it's clearly their fault.
But the thing is, if you ever feel lost, you could find us, I'm pretty sure we're more than willing to give you imaginary hugs. <3
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oh clothes ? lol finally found something to balme hehe
thx sweetie .. it's been a week now and thx to all your helps i feel a lot better :)
suicide is in no way weakness
it is in a way or another , no matter how dark it is you can't give up and suicide
We all have our ups and downs and when I was feeling depressed (which I am still feeling to this very day) I felt like gouging my fucking eyes out and just ending it all but you know what I kept my humanity and I kept pushing forward.We all tend to look at ourselves and say "I can't do it because I'm just human" but that is the very thing that makes us who we are,the thing about depression is a human being can survive almost anything, as long as they see the end in sight, but depression is so insidious, and it compounds daily, that it's impossible to ever see the end.
But it doesn't matter how hard life hits you it matter's if you get up and keep pushing forward. I know my old sam and one of my best friends wouldn't give up just because they felt lost,I remember when you were a nobody here and you climbed up the ranks like there was no tomorrow and today you have over 350 fans and thats a pretty good acheivement. I also remember when you left me and just treated me like nothing while I watched every artwork,every post, every reply you made and I even wished that you would have a happy life when I saw a shooting star once.
If you want to become a doctor then be the best doctor by saving lives with pride, if you want to become a hero then save humanity and be brave or die trying, If you want to become immortal then travel the stars among us and seek for truth and knowledge. The sky is the limit my friend so throw off the bowlines, sail away from safe harbor, catch the trade winds in your sails....explore, dream and Discover.
You must stay strong, you have to let the people be the support of your fortress and hold your ground and guard it with pride,courage and strength so that you can prepare for the great battle that comes in the future.The one thing all famous authors, world class athletes, business tycoons, singers, actors, and celebrated achievers in any field have in common is that they all began their journeys when they were none of these things.
You only live once Sam................................................Make use of it my friend....I shall continue watching you with great interest but for now I have done all I can for a valuable friend like you.Stay safe,Live long and prosper.
man , i never left you or felt like you're nothing .. you're one of my first friends here and you always had your place in my heart bro , other than that all what you said was right .. i didn't give up so far so do i give up now .. thank you man .. i will and i really wish the same for you , bro
Am I supposed to believe this?
am i supposed to give a fuck if you do or not ?
pls don't kill yourself
all people have talent and u my friend is the most talented, smartest ,toughest and the most coolest guy i know
thank you man :)
The news from your country hasn't been too tolerant lately... be careful!
Yeah btw I travelled to another country to study there and i think that's why I got really depressed .. missingmy old friends :/